How to Witness a Miracle Without Converting
Ajanaé Dawkins
My mother swapped prayer for sharp screams when my
sister crowned. The epidural settled
on one side until the nerves in her left
hip became stars, dying down the dark of
her thigh. At 17, I watched a girl-
child emerge covered in only-God-can-
name. Maybe, blood-light. Star-vein. Water-
sky. A boneless sea creature who knows some-
thing about the universe sitting next
to ours. I don’t want to go back nor do
I want to die this way—making daughters.
My body has a tenure of chaos
and blood. It’s clotting and ache began at
the edge of girlhood. I see no way out.
Copyright © 2024 by Ajanaé Dawkins. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on August 16, 2024, by the Academy of American Poets.
Ajanaé Dawkins is a Black writer and educator. She is the author of Blood-flex (New Delta Review), winner of the 2024 New Delta Review Chapbook Prize. Dawkins is the artist in residence at Ohio State University’s Urban Arts Space. She lives in Columbus, Ohio.